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bad day today!!! nagalit yung isa kong client dahil sa katangahan ko. i already say sorry to her through text pero hindi na siya nagreply. hindi pa naman ako sana'y na mayroon akon taong di kaunawaan at bukod pa dun yung kaibigan ko dito sa company masama rin ang loob sa akin. akala nya inagawan ko siya ng client. yan ang hirap sa sales e, mukhang pera ang mga tao .... at hindi ko maintindihan e kung bakit nya naisip na ninakaw ko yung client nya, kasi i will never do that!! pakiramdam ko wala siya tiwala sa akin. i myself really value "TRUST" so much and i wanna earn it to every person that i meet. i feel so lonely whenever i have some misunderstanding with someone. specially kaibigan ko pa. nagexplain na ako sa kanya, but all she has to say is "hindi pinapa-assist ko lang yung client ko sa iyo, pero inagaw mo na." kakilala ko ang husband nya and we usually go out... her, her husband and some of my office friends. so hindi ko maintindihan e kong pano pumasok sa isip nya na inagawan ko siya.. AKO PA?? na kaibigan nya?? *sigh* i wanna shout!!! im just not used to this.... i dont want some of our officemate to know bout this coz they might take sides,which i dont want to happen. minsan nga gusto ko sabihin na, sa kanya na yun benta para matapos na lang. but my boss will surely get mad at me coz even her knows na client ko yun. its just that she have a very closed mind na ayaw niya nang tumanggap pa ng paliwanag. all she knows is inagaw ko yun!!! and thats it! nakita ko silang magasawa yesterday, binati ko yung husband nya tapos naringgan ko yung husband niya nang parang "si Airwind ba? tsk tsk tsk ...." all i do that time is to walk out of the scene coz i know i wont be good for me to stay there and chat.
my blog may not make any sense or even hard to understand today, i just cant type everything thats on my head. i dont know if i have to say sorry to her?? or do i really made a mistake?? may kasalanan ba talaga ako?? one thing that i learned from these is that people that i met on my school days is very much different from the people that i work with now. they can be my friends but still it makes me think that i dont know them?? unlike my school day friends, na alam ko ang liko nang bituka at naiintidihan ako.... nakakalungkot....